Now that I think about it, I'll probably use this as a music blog as well as a venting blog. I don't know yet.

I don't even know.

     I copied my friend Phil and made one of these because I feel like this is the place where the least amount of people will see something that I put on the internet, which is what I desire, anyway.

     I honestly don't even know why I decided to make this stupid thing. I know it's not for show purposes, so I guess it is just a therapeutic thing.

    It's kind of funny, I'll think of great things to say throughout the day, literally conjure things that I actually feel the need to write down, but they escape me as soon as I have any idle time. 

     Hell, where do I even go with this silly ass tool? Am I supposed to explain myself on here and portray who I am or what I do? I already think this is fucking silly, but I think I need to stop believing that most things are stupid and redundant and start opening up a little bit more, so why not to a virtual diary?  

      I'm 22 years old. I have the lumbar of a 75 year old and that is just added to my ever expanding list of health stipulations. However, I try to back-burner those thoughts and focus on the good that has recently been conjured in the last couple of months.

•   I am constantly reminded every day that I have one of the best group of friends that I  would consider to be normal. 
• I am in a mutually happy relationship. Someone who relates to me in almost every way and I actually want to talk to her about anything and everything, definitely a drastic change. 

• I recently have been employed by Integrity Systems & Solutions, a very small IT company with a lot of clients. I work with a bunch of nice guys and it seems to be very promising, so I'm hoping for the best with that, and don't want to jynx anything. 

     I really don't know where I'm going with this thing at all, I already feel fucking stupid to be typing all of this, but whatever, change is good sometimes.

     I need to start working on being less skeptical and persistent with questioning, I find that it tends to annoy people that I barrage them with questions, mostly just being an annoyance. In the skeptic sense, I have trouble believing anything off of the bat and tend to have to pry information or dig intensively, ultimately conjuring more stress for than myself than what it's good for. It's stupid, I guess I'll just try and sleep off any suspicion or questioning that I feel may lead to a discrepancy and see how that goes from now on.

     Really, I hope this blog reaches as little people as possible. I'll be a hypocrite and post it somewhere on a social networking sight imminently probably. Fuck it, it's the internet, there's no way in hell this can be the dumbest or most embarrassing thing on the internet.